Beachy

It is hard for me to say but I am doing a "DIET". I have always been a person who did not believe in diets but my eating was really out of control I needed something to give me a kick start and break the bad habits I have.

After a LOT of research, I am doing South Beach and in some ways I can see that this could be a lifestyle change just as I used to do. It has involved me changing my eating habits quite drastically though.

I have just finished Phase 1 which is the most radical phase and not something I would have ever done in the past. I am down 3.2kg, but I think a lot of this is water.

The best thing about it, is that I am eating so much more vegetables!
For example: Morning I have a half cup of spinach with my egg.
Lunch I have about 3 cups of salad leaves (mostly Rocket) when in the past I would maybe have 1 cup on my wrap.
Dinner: Loaded with veges! Asparagus, Eggplant, Zuccini, Brocollini, Cucumber and much more. Probably at least 3 cups.

If you asked me 10 years ago I would never have believed I would eat so many veges and actually enjoy it!

Phase 2 starts today where I reintroduce fruit. I am so glad as I have had little energy to work out properly and an apple before my workout always helped in the past.

That apple is looking sooooo good!

New scales

Last night I went out and bought some new scales as the one one got waterlogged in the move and are broken. I was never very happy with them as they would always say something different even after 2 mins...

I bought Tanita scales with the Body Fat measure and got a free pedometer. I always loved a pedometer and scales. I am a measuring girl and get a lot of motivation when the scale goes down (and determination when it goes up).

My official start is 107.9kg (237pounds) and ~45% body fat (although I really don't trust the body fat thing.

Good news is that my hubbie has lost 5kg since we returned from overseas. Bad news is that I have put on 8kg. He is being really supportive of me. He now weighs the same as I did at my biggest (113.7kg back in 2003).

Food glorious food...

I have been having a hard time of it this week. Food beckons me. I love it. I also have a problem with binge eating. Sometimes I just cannot stop eating until I feel Ill or I can't hide anywhere to eat. When I lost the 20kg I lost (before I put 15kg back on) I was not on a "diet". I had a healthy eating and healthy exercise plan which mostly worked (albeit slowly). I just can't seem to regain those habits and have been thinking of going on a "diet" to give me a kick start. I am looking at CSIro diet or South Beach. I can't in my mind thathom doing weight watchers again as when I did do it it was not in a healthy way (i.e undereating to allow things I really shouldn't have been eating).
On a positive note I am trying to remember all the positive things that have improved in my health these last 5 years, mostly in the variety of food I now eat. I grew up in a household of meat, potatoes, pasta, junk food and takeaway. Vegetable were overcooked and my parent soon gave up trying to make us eat them. Salad??? Oh you mean coleslaw (which I hate) that came with the KFC .My mother still lives like this. My mum was a great cook when it came to deep or shallow fried. Even roast dinners were virtually shallow fried. I took over the household cooking largely from the age of 16 (and did a lot before then too).
Here are the list of things I now eat on a regular basis most of which I thought I didn't like back then:
Mushrooms (which I now LOVE)
Pumpkins ( love)
Spinach (love)
Rocket (love)
Cucumbers (I would eat these before but not as often as I do now)
Eggplant (aubergine)
Onions
Carrots
Cabbage (unless cleaverly hidden in something deep fried)
Baby broccoli (but not normal broccoli)
Zuccini (Courgette)
Chickpeas
Broadbeans
Lentils
Asparagus (YUM)
Leek
Ginger
Sweet Potatoe (Kumara)
Things I will still not eat and don't ask me to ( I have tried)
Capsicum - I hate these the worst
Brussel sprouts
Beans (both these still make me retch).
So in all I have come a long way I suppose. I am more open to trying things.

Don't cry out loud

The weekend went ok and on Monday I was into my relaunch of the healthy lifestyle. Then on Monday night the hubbie and I had a bad fight and Tuesday was a blur of chocolate and chips. At least I did not give into my urge for KFC and ate my healthy lunch (and 2 chocolate bars & a packet of chips.) Sigh.

Things are back to normal today.

Everybodies wearing blue jeans

Spring is here and my body feels ready to get back on track.

I wish I hadn't gained back 15 of the 20 Kilos I lost. But it has happened and it is way over time to deal with it and also to understand why it happened so it doesn't happen again.

I am sitting at work in my jeans. The same jeans that I left behind when I went overseas as they had gotten too big for me. Now they are barely containing me and I will not buy another pair and let myself get too big for them.
The fly forms a funny pattern of bulges like this- ( ). The waist which was always loose cuts into my belly. My thighs feel constricted. The hems are shorter than they were before and I feel like a dork. So why am I wearing them. Because all those things have now made me wake up to myself!

Soon there will be stonefruit and I love nectarines. I have developed a love of Rocket and am looking forward to crisp tangy salads (which is a post for another day).

Tomorrow I am going on a picnic and I will be taking the salad and some fruit to eat so I don't gorge on Meat like I did at last weekend BBQs.

I am feeling introspective and have so much to write that I don't know where to start. All I know is that I have to get back into those good routines and keep on them!